6) Someone who fascinates you, and why?
I would say it isn't just one person but an entire family. The Kennedy's have always fascinated me. I was born after both President Kennedy and his brother Bobby were assassinated. That alone made them fascinated. For not one but two brothers who were very high up in their political party to be killed is unheard of! Then add in everything about their brothers and sisters. Plus then my generation of Kennedy children. If America had a royal family, to me it was the Kennedy's. They were raised so different then anything I could comprehend. They wanted to make a difference in other people's lives. To leave a positive impact on this world.
And then there was the flip side. The scandals. All the things they did wrong. With a family that size it would be impossible for none of the bad to happen. And it should just how human they were. And while I would say my generation isn't nearly as well known. They are still there. They are still carrying on the family legacy. It's something I admired and respect. It can't be easy to be a Kennedy child, yet by and large they still try and do right by who they are and the family they are part of.
Sunday, November 8, 2015
Saturday, November 7, 2015
Writing challenge day 5
Fell asleep before I did this yesterday, so will do another one tonight.
5) Someplace you want to live, but have never been.
Do I want it to be somewhere warm or not? If we are going with a warmer climate I would lean towards Hawaii or Australia. But after living in Southern California and tiring of the almost always warm weather I don't feel I could live in a place that is warm most if not all the time. I would miss my seasons. Plus I don't do well in heat for long periods of time.
So that then leaves my two favorite places I would want to live, but have never been to. England or Ireland. I fluctuate back and forth between the two. They both would be so intriguing. Ireland is known for its beautiful countryside. But England would have more options I would think. Country or city or anything in between. Plus umm hello Harry Potter comes to us from England! Who wouldn't want to live where Harry Potter is from?
5) Someplace you want to live, but have never been.
Do I want it to be somewhere warm or not? If we are going with a warmer climate I would lean towards Hawaii or Australia. But after living in Southern California and tiring of the almost always warm weather I don't feel I could live in a place that is warm most if not all the time. I would miss my seasons. Plus I don't do well in heat for long periods of time.
So that then leaves my two favorite places I would want to live, but have never been to. England or Ireland. I fluctuate back and forth between the two. They both would be so intriguing. Ireland is known for its beautiful countryside. But England would have more options I would think. Country or city or anything in between. Plus umm hello Harry Potter comes to us from England! Who wouldn't want to live where Harry Potter is from?
Thursday, November 5, 2015
Writing challenge day 4
4. Ten interesting facts about yourself
I'm not sure I can come up with ten, but here we go.
A) I have one eye that is green and the other one is half brown half green. The doctor says this just happens sometimes, the pigment just splits. I've always say that since one sister has brown eyes and the other has green eyes, I'm the split vote and couldn't decide lol!
B) I moved from Indiana to California to do an internship at The Young and the Restless. And then I stayed for eight years. Working as a production assistant on a prime time show and another day time drama.
C) Wow this is hard. See I'm only at number three and I feel like there is nothing else interesting about me. Okay how about that I seem to make friends easily but I actually am uncomfortable having a lot of friends. I don't trust people because of being burned in the past so I always think anyone who wants to be friends with me only wants something from me.
D) and on that note I struggle with boy/girl relationships. I feel I'm not pretty and not deserving of being with a man. That I'm not good enough for a guy to want me just for who I am.
E) I enjoying writing, but the fear of failing keeps me from actually putting the stories in my he's down on paper, well on computer.
F) This one goes back up with B. While interning at Y&R I was used as an extra for a CBS soap special. They used to do this little episodes where Kristoff St. John (Neil on Y&R) would interview other soap stars. Well he was interviewing Shemar Moore and they wanted to film Shemare coming into the studio and make it look like he had fans waiting outside the studio to get his autograph. There were fans there, but the producers didn't feel like there were enough, so the interns working that day all ended up pretending to be fans wanting his autograph. That would be my 30 seconds of fame!
G) I met my husband while working at Universal Studios Hollywood.
H) WooHoo up to number #8! I would love to move to New Orleans. I feel confident I. That city. The people who live there look at each other differently then anywhere else in the U.S. But I don't want to move away from my mother. I've already done that once, won't do it again.
I) I got to go backstage and meet Kieth Urban in 2007. Amazing experience!
J) I have had many medical problems in the last year. The big ones being that I have chronic Lyme disease and occipital neuralgia. I have not gone a full day without a head since March 30, 2014. So as of this writing one year, seven months and five days with a headache of some type or another. This ranges from just a plain headache, to tension headaches, to migraines, to the occipital neuralgia headaches. It is quite simply unbearable!
Well I don't know if that is what this challenge was looking for, but that's what you are getting!
I'm not sure I can come up with ten, but here we go.
A) I have one eye that is green and the other one is half brown half green. The doctor says this just happens sometimes, the pigment just splits. I've always say that since one sister has brown eyes and the other has green eyes, I'm the split vote and couldn't decide lol!
B) I moved from Indiana to California to do an internship at The Young and the Restless. And then I stayed for eight years. Working as a production assistant on a prime time show and another day time drama.
C) Wow this is hard. See I'm only at number three and I feel like there is nothing else interesting about me. Okay how about that I seem to make friends easily but I actually am uncomfortable having a lot of friends. I don't trust people because of being burned in the past so I always think anyone who wants to be friends with me only wants something from me.
D) and on that note I struggle with boy/girl relationships. I feel I'm not pretty and not deserving of being with a man. That I'm not good enough for a guy to want me just for who I am.
E) I enjoying writing, but the fear of failing keeps me from actually putting the stories in my he's down on paper, well on computer.
F) This one goes back up with B. While interning at Y&R I was used as an extra for a CBS soap special. They used to do this little episodes where Kristoff St. John (Neil on Y&R) would interview other soap stars. Well he was interviewing Shemar Moore and they wanted to film Shemare coming into the studio and make it look like he had fans waiting outside the studio to get his autograph. There were fans there, but the producers didn't feel like there were enough, so the interns working that day all ended up pretending to be fans wanting his autograph. That would be my 30 seconds of fame!
G) I met my husband while working at Universal Studios Hollywood.
H) WooHoo up to number #8! I would love to move to New Orleans. I feel confident I. That city. The people who live there look at each other differently then anywhere else in the U.S. But I don't want to move away from my mother. I've already done that once, won't do it again.
I) I got to go backstage and meet Kieth Urban in 2007. Amazing experience!
J) I have had many medical problems in the last year. The big ones being that I have chronic Lyme disease and occipital neuralgia. I have not gone a full day without a head since March 30, 2014. So as of this writing one year, seven months and five days with a headache of some type or another. This ranges from just a plain headache, to tension headaches, to migraines, to the occipital neuralgia headaches. It is quite simply unbearable!
Well I don't know if that is what this challenge was looking for, but that's what you are getting!
Wednesday, November 4, 2015
Writing challenge day 3
3) Your first kiss and first love.
My first kiss would have been in high school I think. It obviously didn't leave a large impression on me. If it had, surely I would remember all the details. My first love. Well how long do you want this to be?
I can't tell you the exact day I met David but it would have been sometime in 1996. We were both working at Universal Studios in California. I was a ride op and he was show crew. I had noticed him, I noticed everyone. But didn't think much of it. I'm not the type of person guys asked out. I felt it was because of my being so overweight, but I suspect my lack of confidence had a lot to do with it. But in April of 1997 David asked me out! Our first date was on April 19, 1996. And that was it for us. The date lasted over 12 hours and we were inseparable from that point on. We eloped to Las Vegas six weeks later. He was my first love, my best friend, and my soulmate!
David taught me that I was loveable, that I was worthy of being in a relationship. My David died on October 14, 2009. Twelve and a half years after we got married. He had been diagnosed with kidney failure in March of 2004. He went on dialysis in December of 2006. He was on dialysis for two years before getting the miracle of a kidney transplant from an anonymous living donor on December 30, 2008. From that point on he was as healthy as he had ever been in our marriage. He started going to the gym and working out. Life was looking up for us!
But then on October 7, 2009 he went to the bedroom not feeling well. I could hear him wheezing in the living room. I thought he was having an asthma attack. I ended up having to call 911, while on the phone with them he stopped breathing. When the EMS got there he was breathing again and he had a pulse. But when they went to put him on the board his heart stopped. It stopped again in the ambulance, and once more in the ER. All told there was a total of over 20 minutes without oxygen to his brain. They put him in a drug induced coma to see if that would help. He never woke up again. He was on a respirator and was matching the machine breath for breath. Until the morning of October 14. That morning he had stopped breathing completely and it was the machine that was keeping him alive. I had to do the one thing no person should ever have to do. I had to make the decision to take my love off of life support. I will always wonder if I made the right decision. Doctors know a lot, but they don't know everything. You read stories about others waking years and years later and they are fine. But if I had kept David on life support, I would have been keeping him alive for me. I just couldn't do that. He wouldn't have wanted that.
I miss him every single day. It's been over six years, sometimes it feels like yesterday, other times it feels like a life time ago. I just miss him! And I will always wonder if I made the right choice.
My first kiss would have been in high school I think. It obviously didn't leave a large impression on me. If it had, surely I would remember all the details. My first love. Well how long do you want this to be?
I can't tell you the exact day I met David but it would have been sometime in 1996. We were both working at Universal Studios in California. I was a ride op and he was show crew. I had noticed him, I noticed everyone. But didn't think much of it. I'm not the type of person guys asked out. I felt it was because of my being so overweight, but I suspect my lack of confidence had a lot to do with it. But in April of 1997 David asked me out! Our first date was on April 19, 1996. And that was it for us. The date lasted over 12 hours and we were inseparable from that point on. We eloped to Las Vegas six weeks later. He was my first love, my best friend, and my soulmate!
David taught me that I was loveable, that I was worthy of being in a relationship. My David died on October 14, 2009. Twelve and a half years after we got married. He had been diagnosed with kidney failure in March of 2004. He went on dialysis in December of 2006. He was on dialysis for two years before getting the miracle of a kidney transplant from an anonymous living donor on December 30, 2008. From that point on he was as healthy as he had ever been in our marriage. He started going to the gym and working out. Life was looking up for us!
But then on October 7, 2009 he went to the bedroom not feeling well. I could hear him wheezing in the living room. I thought he was having an asthma attack. I ended up having to call 911, while on the phone with them he stopped breathing. When the EMS got there he was breathing again and he had a pulse. But when they went to put him on the board his heart stopped. It stopped again in the ambulance, and once more in the ER. All told there was a total of over 20 minutes without oxygen to his brain. They put him in a drug induced coma to see if that would help. He never woke up again. He was on a respirator and was matching the machine breath for breath. Until the morning of October 14. That morning he had stopped breathing completely and it was the machine that was keeping him alive. I had to do the one thing no person should ever have to do. I had to make the decision to take my love off of life support. I will always wonder if I made the right decision. Doctors know a lot, but they don't know everything. You read stories about others waking years and years later and they are fine. But if I had kept David on life support, I would have been keeping him alive for me. I just couldn't do that. He wouldn't have wanted that.
I miss him every single day. It's been over six years, sometimes it feels like yesterday, other times it feels like a life time ago. I just miss him! And I will always wonder if I made the right choice.
Tuesday, November 3, 2015
Writing challenge day 2
2) Your earliest memory
My earliest memory? I'm not really sure. I have little glimpses of memories. Most from age 5 and up, I guess. When I was five I started kindergarten. For some reason the school bus I was going to be riding. On to get to school was different then my sisters. I'm thinking I was in afternoon kindergarten. Anyway my mom and I are standing out in the drive way waiting for the bus. We see it coming, I'm remember being excited because I was finally going to ride on the school bus! But then it drove right past us, not even slowing down! Well mom and I get in the car and we followed the bus, mom waved the driver down. She got me out of the car and put me in the bus. A very memorable first day of school!
My earliest memory? I'm not really sure. I have little glimpses of memories. Most from age 5 and up, I guess. When I was five I started kindergarten. For some reason the school bus I was going to be riding. On to get to school was different then my sisters. I'm thinking I was in afternoon kindergarten. Anyway my mom and I are standing out in the drive way waiting for the bus. We see it coming, I'm remember being excited because I was finally going to ride on the school bus! But then it drove right past us, not even slowing down! Well mom and I get in the car and we followed the bus, mom waved the driver down. She got me out of the car and put me in the bus. A very memorable first day of school!
30 day writing challenge
1. 5 problems with social media.
Here's the thing, I love social media. I'm an introvert and this is the best way for me to talk with my friends, without ever leaving my house! Plus I have made so many friends from around the world, that I never would have known had it not been for social media! However there are problems with it, for nothing is perfect!
A) it is impersonal. You never truly know who you are talking to. A great way for people to hurt others because it isn't face to face. You can get a way with a lot you wouldn't in person.
B) People put way to much info out there. I don't need to see their dirty laundry. Some things should be private!
C) I was always taught the two things you don't talk about are religion and politics. Now one one hand I have a much broader understanding of both because of social media. However I have also seen far to many hurtful things said on social media. Once it's out ther, you can't take it back!
D) I found out my father-in-law died on Facebook. Talk about a horrible way to learn that! True when my husband died I did blog about in and posted it on Facebook. But not until after I had made an effort to make sure all family members had been told as soon as it happened. I wa on the phone to his parents and siblings asap. Before I had left the hospital. My family was ther with me, and the ones who weren't were told by my sisters.
E) Social media can and has taken over people's lives. The amount of time people spend on their phones, their tablets, their laptops, etc., people don't seem to be able to go anywhere without their noses stuck in some device. We don't talk anymore. Not on the phone anyway. I remember as a kid talking on the phone to my girls friends for hours. Now it's short little texts back and forth. Even the writing is abbreviated. Children aren't learning social etiquette.
For me those are the five main things wrong with social media. I'm sure others have different things they see as wrong, but that's my list.
Monday, October 26, 2015
I miss my old life.....
I'm lying here in bed, watching a movie. Playing games on my iPad, and checking out Facebook. I have my dog snoring away at my side. My oldest cat Zoey (she's 14!!!!) laying on my shoulder purring away! Newest kitty Jasper lying on the bed next tonZoey. I lay here thinking, it doesn't get much better then this. Then it hits me that David isn't here anymore. How am I supposed to be happy with out him? And now instead of content, I'm crying. And Zoey is licking the tears off of my face, what cat does that I ask you? Dogs yes, but cats? I don't have a bad life. Yes I'm sick, and on tons of medications. But I have doctors who are trying to help me heal, the best they can. I have a roof over my head, clothes to wear, and food to eat. I have the best friends a person could ever ask for. I also have an excellent mother, and a cousin who is truly a blessing in my life.
Yet the hole David has left in it. Six years later it feels just as big as the day he died. He taught me to love. He taught me that I can be loved. And now I don't know what do with all of those feelings. I just miss him so much!! I don't want to be that bitter old lady who grows old alone. But I also don't know how to get outside my own head. David came to me. He charmed his way right into my life, and I didn't even know he was doing it until it was too late. I just want that again. That isn't to much to ask, is it?
Yet the hole David has left in it. Six years later it feels just as big as the day he died. He taught me to love. He taught me that I can be loved. And now I don't know what do with all of those feelings. I just miss him so much!! I don't want to be that bitter old lady who grows old alone. But I also don't know how to get outside my own head. David came to me. He charmed his way right into my life, and I didn't even know he was doing it until it was too late. I just want that again. That isn't to much to ask, is it?
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